So today is Monday. I really dislike Mondays. Monday always symbolizes the potential of last week happening all over again. I guess that could be a good thing for some of us. But for me it isn’t always a good sign.
I suffer from a lack of serotonin. For some of you that means depression. For me that just means I need a pick me up to get moving in the morning (coffee does not work). Which could be why I want to stay in bed. I try not to make excuses but it’s hard not to.
I have been unemployed for 2 years now and it is weighing very heavily on my mind. The only offers I have had were of companies wanting me to start my own franchise of their brand. I have the know-how, the drive and the ability to do it but I just don’t have the stability in life to do that sort of thing right now. It would be hard to do especially since my wife is military and we move every 2-3 years. Right now I need a job for the sanity and most importantly the feeling of self worth.
I don’t know why I am really sharing this with you. You don’t need to know my problems nor do you have to care about them. I just always feel better after typing them out. Sometimes I just want to scream, “Why Me!” It frustrates me to see others that have a job and couldn’t give 2 ish’s about what they do. They show disdain for what they do and for their employers.
I have been contemplating starting my own business dealing with marketing. I have been working with an author who needs help with self publishing her stories. I have been offering my typing and editing abilities to get her going with getting more stories out. I have been doing a little at a time trying to help integrate her into what needs to be done in the world of marketing and promotion. Social media, blogs and the internet are a scary thing for someone that only likes to write on paper. I figured if I could only find more authors like that I would have a solid start and something to build on as a business. But of course doubt takes over and the thought of that actually happening is a far off dream.
I hate the feeling of doubt.
Feel free to share your frustrations with me. I have been told I’m a good listener.